June 2010
1 post
amazing
im amazed
by your words
your face and how i know every single part of it
i cant stop thinking about how it shouldnt be but it is
i cant hold back how i feel
now this ring it burns it burns to my heart
i know im with the one i was meant to be with
I know he is the one whom i was born for
i have cried i have hurt i have died
I dont know who i am with him nor do i know who he wants me to be
...
March 2010
9 posts
my camera
cried to me last night…
why won’t you hold me?
Really...
-murder me-
im not breathing anymore. you killed me. you put me in this box and placed this bag on my head. you stopped me from yelling and you silenced my cries. my heart is too heavy to continue to beat. im cold now. you left me cold. no more happiness or love to warm me. no more magical kisses to wake me. no more sweet words of i love you to pierce these deaf ears. you held me down. pushed me down. kicked...
-liar-
I’m strong enough to handle any story you can tell… I’m wise enough to weed through the bullshit and see the truth and I certainly maintain enough respect for myself to be honest no matter what the cost or who it hurts. I have an absolute low tolerance for anyone who continues to lie after they have been caught, forgiven and also been shown the rules. Those of you who know me...
-blame- oct 07
I’m standing close to greatness
its what “they” say
then why cant i feel him even when im laying in his arms
why cant i stare into his eyes without feeling empty myself
where is the bubble to come take us away
habit babygirl
you cant see good through bad
its all around me suffocating my smiles
not literally bc even a girl like me can smile
ive been taught well by a...
what happened to this....
9/28/2008 blog posted by my husband
Let me tell you of a story of how I met the woman of my dreams. We met 10 years ago. I still remember like it was yesterday. She stood in front me and didn’t even know my name. Hell we never even looked twice at each other. She had her life and I had mine. Who would’ve thought that we ended up as best friends let alone lovers. Here we are today...
February 2010
1 post
Gone...
Every time i turn the conversation to something deeper than the weather i can feel you all but shuttin’ down. And when i need an explanation for the silence you just tell me you don’t wanna talk about it now. What you’re not saying is coming in loud and clear we’re at a crossroads here… If i’m not the one thing you can’t stand to lose If i’m not...
January 2010
1 post
I don’t wanna go through the motions
I don’t wanna go one more day
Without...
– Matthew West, The Motions (via meltinyourmouth)
November 2009
2 posts
October 2009
8 posts
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are...
– Marianne Williamson, A Return to Love: Reflections on the Principles of “A Course in Miracles,” 1992 (via meltinyourmouth)
meltinyourmouth:
Balloon family on the Today Show this morning.
If one dream should fall and break into a thousand pieces, never be afraid to pick one of those pieces up and begin again
September 2009
9 posts
need you now
Picture perfect memories, scattered all around the floor.. Reaching for the phone, cause i cant fight it anymore.. And i wonder if i ever cross your mind, for me it happens all the time, Its a quarter after one and I’m all alone and i need you now, Said i wouldn’t call and but i lost all control and i need you now , And i don’t know how, i can do without, i just need you now,...
wtf
When will I stop feeding on my life… when will I be full?
When will the day satisfy me? When tomorrow is no longer an option?
Can’t I somehow figure out what inside of me isn’t satisfied?
What corner of this body doesn’t feel content?
House that I adore – check
husband that has faults but isn’t horrible- check
amazing wonderful children- check
incredible job with great pay and benefits –...
time with friends...
my lunch dates with lori at the city of rocky mount listening to her cutting off power to a 93 yr old woman makes me sad…
but happy to see her.
spoiled... ROTTEN!
Panic set in yesterday as I called the nanny aka my mother to check on my 4 month old only to hear screaming and crying. 4th call of the day still screaming. Called the Dr.
11 am appointment…
So my son is spoiled. Not sick. Not dying. No ear infection. Just plain…
SPOILED. Its amazing what my mind can do without the shock collar attached.